Almost everything in society is fact /control oriented. We humans tend to get a form of temporary satisfaction from the control, facts, information we receive. Who likes to be left hanging on the edge of something unresolved? I mostly HATE it! Honestly, I WANT RESOLVE and CONTROL. I can even see it in worship gatherings. People are afraid of letting go of what they feel they have control of – Emotions, expression, response, etc.
I hope to enjoy more of life’s mysteries. I want to embrace things that I don't fully comprehend. The world has tried to poison me (and YOU) to believe that we will find the peace and satisfaction we need in facts, logic, and control. In doing so this, it erodes the magic out of faith. Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you’re holding on to. What if we decided that we weren’t going to let society tame our childhood belief in mystery the way that Paul talks of in Timothy 3:14? The Message translation says that “this life is a great mystery, far exceeding our understanding.” The life that follows Jesus will fall prey to the comprehension game if we don’t surrender ourselves to the mysterious awe of God that is being beaten out of us by life itself.
“In the Christian context, we do not mean by a "mystery" merely that which is baffling and mysterious, an enigma or insoluble problem. A mystery is, on the contrary, something that is revealed for our understanding, but which we never understand exhaustively because it leads into the depth or the darkness of God. The eyes are closed—but they are also opened.” ― Kallistos Ware, The Orthodox Way
We might be able to get a form of comfort from knowledge, but there will come a longing for supernatural mystery. That’s when I want to step back and let awe for the Creator overwhelm me. If He is the beginning and the end, we should have peace knowing that HE KNOWS ALL, and that we don’t have to. That probably won’t stop us from trying to know it all though. I guess we can hope and trust that through walking out our faith in a real world, God will meet us where we are and guide us with His Spirit to mystery, reality, logic, and truth.
I wonder what would happen if we didn’t live by ego, pride, control. What if we weren’t crippled by narcissism? Yeah, it’s a mystery but it’s a mystery that I want to try and live with. Wilde said that “Skepticism is the beginning of Faith.” We’ve also heard that “Faith is the evidence of things unseen”. If “wonder is the basis of worship”, maybe we need to allow ourselves to be astonished once again.
Separation from definitions is most unlikely in life. Most would say that everything is either black or white. The grey areas can be a little taboo. We tend to gravitate towards big "hot button" issues, but that is not what we're talking about here really. It seems as though we do our best to set up borders & rules to protect our way of faith, but what we're possibly doing is robbing our lives a full dimensioned journey.
I'm finding that life can't always be black and white, cut and dry. As much as we would like for it to be, sometime it just isn't. What if God doesn't want us to live in a black and white world? A black and white world is created by man. The Creator breathed color into life. WE define the black and white. We may use our moral code and what we have learned from the scriptures to form it, but it is still our formation. If we are setting up the black and white perimeters, what do we need God for? If we are depending on our own, accepted definitions of right and wrong, we have no need of God and His grace. Scripture says that hope in what is seen, is not real hope (Rom. 8:24). Lines might need to be blurred in order for us to actually see God clearly. Does God live in the grey area? The uncertain area? He is bigger than our boundaries and definitions. He is most definitely larger than our words and intellect.
“The choice in politics isn't usually between black and white. It's between two horrible shades of gray.” - Thorneycroft
“Light is meaningful only in relation to darkness, and truth presupposes error. It is these mingled opposites which people our life, which make it pungent, intoxicating. We only exist in terms of this conflict, in the zone where black and white clash.” - L. Aragon
Help us to let go of our desire for power and control. Let go of our desire for affection, esteem, approval and pleasure. May we let go of our desire for survival and security. Let go of our desire to change any situation, condition, person or myself. We are open to the love and presence of God and to what You have already begun. Amen