Hustle Fatigue


Hustle Fatigue

A couple of years ago I converted my Facebook profile to a Page. Little did I know that would become a trend for some. A profile is what everyone has, where you see others in your feed. Pages don't have feeds. It is simply an outlet for posting one way. It wasn't narcissism that drove me to the decision. It was the fatigue I was beginning to encounter. Fatigue from divisive opinion, passive aggressiveness, and the desire to hustle on the socials.

We are being affected by what we hear, see, and project whether we know it or not. The subversive affects of our unsustainable pace and noise will be crippling. Now that I have curated my Twitter and Instagram feeds, I can exhale with a level of gratitude and peace.

Our fatigue can effect everything.

Mental and emotional instability is at an all time high. Let's be attentive to the erosion and warning signs while tending to our self-care. We will find empathy, patience, and some peace again. Our mental, emotional, and physical posturing is incredibly important.

We would do well to be cautious of our fatigue. It can lead us to unlikely places - Having less compassion, and peace can be detrimental to our health, not just mental and emotional health, but relational This is already of problem in the church. When we lose our empathy, compassion, and peace, we lose our bearings on how to navigate trauma or turbulence in life, not to mention being enabled to help others navigate trauma or turbulence.

Here is what is happening because of lessening my consumption of the socials (especially Facebook):

  • Seek opportunity to speak with people in person.
  • Ponder and reflecting with minimal reaction.
  • Meditate and pray rather than simply defaulting to worry.
  • Read more.
  • Listen more.
  • Speak less.

One of the most important aspects I would acknowledge during these days would be that I spend more time with others different than me. I spend time with Republicans, Independents, Green Party, Libertarians, and Democrats. Perspective is understated today. I am seeking to understand more than feel the need to be understood. I beleive that the more we open our minds, arms, and tables the more we actually solidify our worldview. Your worldview should be subject to challenge to be found worthy. If it is shaken easily, it may need reforming. Maybe that comes with my age, or general fatigue of having 3 children, schedule, M.A. studies, or the life that comes with being a priest.

I don't tend to waste time grudging through false news or misinformed / biased arguments.

At the expense of coming off as an old curmudgeon, for the record, the word hustle isn't simply a cool street slang term for grinding / working. It's root is in criminal activity. I do understand the need for motivation and drive. I really do. Maybe we just need to reframe how we view our work ethic.

We are in new days, and we need new light in our lives. I believe we need to be new light to the world of darkness that we combat. We are better together. Curate the relationships closest to you. There may be some that need not be resuscitated. Honor those relationships by letting them go. Fight for those worth fighting for.

Over the past few years, I've come to terms with the idea of being unfollowed, unfriended, or unsubscribed from. It's not the end. It actually helps you to re-begin. As a "Five" (with a strong Four wing), I am sometimes slow to be aware of these relational tension and even slower to be affected by them, but nonetheless must realize that hustle fatigue comes in many forms.

Christ spoke of peace often. Pray for peace, work for peace, be peace, and share peace with everyone you meet.


Disturb Us, Lord


Disturb Us, Lord

As we begin Lent, Disturb Us, Lord

Disturb us, Lord, when We are too well pleased with ourselves, When our dreams have come true Because we have dreamed too little, When we arrived safely Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when With the abundance of things we possess We have lost our thirst For the waters of life; Having fallen in love with life, We have ceased to dream of eternity And in our efforts to build a new earth, We have allowed our vision Of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly, To venture on wider seas Where storms will show your mastery; Where losing sight of land, We shall find the stars.

We ask You to push back The horizons of our hopes; And to push into the future In strength, courage, hope, and love.

  • Attributed to Sir Francis Drake, c. 1577


Why I Am An Anglican


Why I Am An Anglican

For the majority of my life I have intentionally stayed at arm’s length and even cringed at the thought of affiliating myself with a religious denomination. Most of this stems from the nature of ministry I have served in and around during my years of travels and staffing. Maybe it’s been the artist in me saying, “Don’t label me. I mean, I’m just following Jesus.” Or maybe (probably) most of the affiliated religious streams have been known more for what they stand against instead of what they stand for.

Over the past fifteen years there has been more and more gravity compelling me toward ancient practices rooted in the rich history of Early Church. From the over exposure to the attraction model of church I eventually became fatigued with re-inventing the wheel week after week and expecting magical results from a production / presentation. A couple of my close friends have been forthcoming enough to ask if any of my jadedness or cynicism has played into my frustration of the evangelical mega-church model. That may be true but I have realized something very significant in the process – there is a difference between running away from something and being compelled toward something.

With a membership estimated at around 80 million members the Anglican Communion is the third largest Christian communion in the world, after the Catholic Church and the Eastern Orthodox Churches. The Anglican Church has and always will have it’s tensions in many varieties, but that will be found in any human endeavor. For my family and I, we have had a sense of coming home with Anglicanism.

We have had many friends who supported us and many even curious at what is happening these days. Sacramental hunger lies within most of us, though it may reveal itself to us in different ways. We are wired to be experiential. In liturgical spaces, everything becomes meaningful and symbolic. In the offering up of the bread and wine, we see the offering up of the wheat and grain and fruits of the earth, and God gives them back in a sanctified form. Though it may seem to "work" for some, many of us are thirsty for meaning that goes deeper than the brand with a 30 minute concert and a 45 minute motivational speech.

If any of you have ever been with us for a LuminousProject gathering, you know that it is liturgical in some nature. We tend to lean into our ache for sacramentality. Each year, there have been some liturgical conversations and practices, especially with Holy Eucharist. LuminousProject has seemed to serve as an on-ramp for those curious about liturgical worship and formation. Many artists and pragmatists tend to resonate with these practices due to the meaningful history, anchoring, and lack of personality-centricness. No, it’s not without fault and issues because there is human involvement.

As I continue to have conversations with some of my evangelical friends, the questions continue to come. There are a few misconceptions out there. The beautiful thing is, there are many on the path towards a more rooted, anchored, and rich tradition with liturgical and ancient forms. The liturgy is centering, robust, and moving and contrary to popular belief, it is passionate, beautiful, meaningful, and vibrant. The music tends to be diverse, poetic, and spirited.

Obviously, Anglicanism and it’s practices may not be for everyone. Those of us who serve and follow Jesus are of the Kingdom work. It takes all of us. There is much to be done and many ways to do it. I will continue to lead worship and speak in many evangelical churches. We need more bridge building opportunities and less divisive fragmenting within The Church. May we not continue to fear (or judge) what we don’t understand.

I am humbled and excited about this new season in the life of the Jarnagins. Over the past couple of years I was ordained a Deacon and then a Priest in the Anglican Communion. Along with a wonderful small group of friends and numerous supporters, we planted Luminous Parish! We have been meeting weekly since mid February. We are grateful for the meaningful work and excited about expanding our root system over the coming years. 


A few points of interest:

  1. This decision is really more personal than it is public (yes, it’s ironic that I’m doing a post about it).
  2. It is deepening everything that I have done in my church and musical past.
  3. Though much of religion can be stifling, my hope for the Church has never been brighter. I believe that much of the Anglican practice is what will help bring balance and further movement to the Church as a whole.


If you are curious, there are a few books that would further feed your curiosity. Thomas McKenzie’s book The Anglican Way is one of the most recent. It is a great starting point. You could also check out Beyond Smells and BellsThe Accidental Anglican, and  Evangelicals On The Canterbury Trail... or just join us one Sunday at Luminous Parish.


Almighty God, to whom all hearts are open, all desires known, and from whom no secrets are hidden: cleanse the thoughts of our hearts by the inspiration of your Holy Spirit, that we may perfectly love you, and worthily magnify your holy name; through Christ our Lord. Amen.